Hello 2014.

I took a long time to think of what to put as my title since my previous post which is a year - but actually less than 24 hours - ago is kinda crappy but on a second thought maybe it isn't as crappy as i assume? I think one-lettered titles are pretty cool. So it's the first day of a brand new year, twenty fourteen, two zero one four, two thousand and fourteen, i am trying all these word on my mouth, they are all so foreign but at the same time, they sound pretty inviting. I'm not sure if what i say right now make sense because it's two in the morning and i am wide awake. I am not planning to sleep at all tonight, Jesslyn told me to try not sleeping for a day, she described the feeling as "zombie-fied" and i thought that being "zombie-fied" would be a pretty awesome way to kick start a brand new year, I will see if it is or not in a matter of hours I guess.

Are you still reading? It's been sometime since i last typed so much LOL perhaps i am rather talkative at night? I just got home from a countdown party at my friend's house. It's pretty nice, watching fireworks and counting down with my friends for the first time. The first thing i did when i got home was to take a shower and boom, i am feeling fresh right now haha the itchiness on my legs is killing me, i really hate mosquitoes, i always had, i saw it on twitter the other day, it says mosquitoes kill more people than war, illness or natural disasters. I'm not sure if it's true but i am just trying to say that i really hate mosquitoes.

My abs are starting to develop like finally after ages of working out. I actually shed tears of joy when i realised those visible lines forming over my previously flabby stomach. Initially i wanted to post a photo of it, because I've challenged myself to be able to show my stomach by 2013 but thanks to the mosquito bites, i have marks on my stomach and it's not pretty hmph!

I am currently over loaded with random-ness probably because i have the whole night to be random and nobody's gonna disturb me. I intended to make a post about my two thousand and thirteen aka twenty thirteen aka two zero one three, but i got carried away by my randomness. Okay maybe i should stop being random or else this post is never gonna end and wait, ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? I can't blame you if you're not because I am talking too much but wait, i still wanna blame you for not having enough patience.

Current thought on mind : Am I gonna feel like strangling myself while reading this back after sometime? LOL cause i feel like drowning myself in the deep blue sea every now and then while reading back my old posts LOLOL

An old selfie from my trip to Sekinchan.
I really really love this photo that's why i went back to find it and post it here ehh 

To me, 2013 is a really long year. I've been struggling between relationships and studies a lot. FYI, I am someone who takes relationships and studies really seriously. At the beginning of the year everything started out fine, i really enjoyed the first quarter of the year. However good things don't last forever. I began having more and more issues in my friendship, I began finding it hard to cope with my studies, and that's when i break down almost every single night. 2013 is no doubt the year i cried most. It's probably the year i hit the rock bottom? I hope 2013 really is the lowest point of my life because it'll mean that i'll live better in future, because the worst is over but as much as i hope it is, i know it's not. Yet, I've grew much stronger last year and i believe i'll be living better this year.

Don't try to understand everything because sometimes it is not meant to be understood, but to be accepted. I've learnt that a lot of things can change in a blink of an eye and not everything can be explained. But hey, this is life, it is filled with plot twist. I am proud of myself for being more optimistic lately, I'm starting be able to compose myself better and not fret over everything. I believe that life doesn't get better by chance, it gets better by change. Everything around us is made up of energy. To attract positive thins in your life, start by giving out positive energy. That's it.

I came across this really meaningful text i saw a few days ago which i think is very inspiring and decided to share this as much as possible.

Also, I acknowledge that I'll be sitting for SPM this year, which is probably the most important examination of my entire life studying. I shall strive for nothing but the best. I am going to keep my straight A's record, i must. If you're a SPM candidate like i am too, it's time to work really hard. So start preparing so you'll not regret.

Hopefully you've read everything til the end and hopefully it worth your time :)

Happy 2014 xx

Love, 

Sheunny